live. love. and dream. a star that constantly burns in the sky.

Thursday, December 01, 2005

okie dokie pokie

*rubs eyes* eye liner always makes my eyes BURN!!!!!!!!!!!.............ok soo hmm interview at 2 for the bay........i hope i do ok. missed 2 math classes now!!!

FUCK YEAH!

lol

blah all this shit has been happening but today i had a revalation and decided to just not let it bother me ~ w/e w/e is the flow that dis goes by byb yb y bybby


not much to say today *yawns* my eyes hurt a lottttt

i guess a POEM!


Freedom in the skies, you see it everyday
It's a song that keeps on saying, "hold out for another day"
Just one more chance, just one last try
No matter what, you get pushed aside
Hold on tight, grasp with all your might
Looks like you're in for one hell of a fight
Seeking answers, everyday,
It all feels like it doesn't really matter anyway
Despite this you face the day
Holding out
Holding out
For another day

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

rice pudding has a bad aftertaste

yes it's true.


man i gotta learn how to COOK. im so HUNGRY right now and all i could resort to is rice pudding...lately i hafnt been eating very heathily or sleeping very much so my productivity and eye sight has shot down. i find i feel like itz 12 am when it's only 9 pm - oy

oh. got my math test back today...i briefly scanned over it before tucking it into the abyss of my bag forever.

let's just say it's rlly bad.

and no not the type of bad where u go NOOO I FAILLLEED! and got a 60, itz more the type of NOOO I FAILED, and got a 15%.

yes.

this morning in eng lit a girl had a seizure...was rlly....scary. wont go into details. pretty pointless day, we did nothing in that class, watched a movie in world issues, and...well, math is math, which i constantly find pointless. the kids keep pissing me off

all these fucking kids keep fucking pissing me off!

everytime i go to my locker i find there's the fucking garbage bin in front of my locker!! like WTF...and i move it EVERYTIME only to have it *mysteriously* return there. (i blame the niners!!!! lol) and today when i went to go get rdy to leave, the garbage bin had a shit load of juice all around it YAY!! holy FUCK...i should just move my locker, share with jade-chan (hahaha yeah RIGHT) and these fucking NINERS!!! are always around my locker at that time because they're waiting to go into class - they keep flocking around the fucking garabage bin like a bunch of annoying flies!! and the kick it around and shit......closer to MY LOCKER!!! and are in my way when im trying to get rdy to leave.

*says 12 consequtive swear words*

oh yeah, university seminar yesterday, skipped world issues to take a look @ my choices only to find out that a prereq for york university is WORLD ISSUES - ding ding ding! the course im getting 48% in !!!!

lol omfg..the irony.

ok ne way...i handed in all my missing work so things should be ok now....i was stressing out like MAD yesterday because of all my marks.

FUCK U GALLLANGGGGGGGG

2 of my gr 12 courses are GALANG courses, so u can GUESS that they're low marks - one of them being a 68, leaving my avarage at al nice 77%

oh man

so i gotta get these gr 12 marks up that im taking now - eng lit and world issues, and hopefully replace them w/ the 2 media courses. *sigh*

ok so here r my picks for unis.

York University

Either Creative Writing or Professional Writing

UofT - Scaraborough

Co-op Humanities

UofT - St George

Humanities - > English


still gotta look into them sum more, but yeah :D i think ill be ok, i just gotta apply ASAP so that i get picked ASAP! lol because of my low marks...*lowers head*

oh yeah, i just remembered...hahah, ok a couple of weeks ago this girl asked me to draw a picture of ...well, something to discourage something like drunk driving or smoking or something...LOL

ok so i had like, 5 mins or so to draw this, so i start drawing this dude crying...but the thing is it doesnt look like a dude, it looks more like a butch woman *as they put it*...well! *hmph* obviously they've never heard of a bishounen! anyway...lol it was pretty f-d...i didnt even finish it but she scoops it up and says im gonna use it!

yeah ok SURE

but...i had completely forgot about it as i made my way to the library, and sure, enuff, she walks by saying "we put ur picture on the ESP calender!"

WTF!!!

so when i see her again in the library i ask her to see the calender, sure enuff, there it is right on the back. i ask her if my name is ne where mentioned and she says it isnt THANK GOD!


well i thought it was pretty amusing.

lol

ne way cant think of much else to say - sheeya!


edit ->

forgot to put up these lyrics, ive been pretty into this song lately:

Coldplay - Yellow

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah, they were all yellow.

I came along,
I wrote a song for you,
And all the things you do,
And it was called yellow.

So then I took my turn,
Oh what a thing to have done,
And it was all yellow.

Your skin
Oh yeah, your skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
You know, you know I love you so,
You know I love you so.

I swam across,
I jumped across for you,
Oh what a thing to do.
Cos you were all yellow,

I drew a line,
I drew a line for you,
Oh what a thing to do,
And it was all yellow.

Your skin,
Oh yeah your skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
And you know for you,
I’d bleed myself dry for you,
I’d bleed myself dry.

It’s true, look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine.

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And all the things that you do.

Sunday, November 27, 2005

ico

just finished playing ICO for ps2...must say i was rdy to kill the game 20 times over because of the ending, till there was an "epilogue" at the end....to which completly satisfied me. i started seeing patterns that linked to "shadow of colossus" until...well, until he stuck the sword in the wall and left it there. then i was like oO ......that's...not the same sword from shadow of colossus?

well, the horn thing makes sense...i rem- blah, ok enuff of that.


ne way..........i left my sunday free to do hw...as u can seee it's 6pm now i hafnt started. i gotta write a speech....*cries* a SPEECH. idunno how the hell that's gonna happen...i guess i can bs something >.>


blah~ ive become so lax w/ my work, it's like ive forgotten HOW to work when mary ward pounded it into me - work work work work!! i guess im just desperate to finish..im restless, or so to say..

oh well..ill start after supper >.>

i hope ur doing ok w/ the speech jade-chan....i still wish i coulda copied off ur graph. i mean, i am failing, and not like he'd care....and im like ur best friend too. i woulda done it for u but i guess that's ur choice =(

ne way...:P im off to wallow in my pool of self-rotting-pity, to repeat the words, "speech", "graph", and "gmos" over and over.

T____T why do i do this to myself? *whines*